I've never felt better sitting on the toilet. That may sound disgusting, but I want to make the circumstances clear and record them because they are magical.
You've had a rough couple of nights, if I remember correctly and feel how exhausted I feel correctly. I can see that your gums are a bit inflamed and so I understand why you would be crankier than normal in your sleep.
Before we went to bed, we had a very unhealthy pizza dinner. It was salty and we let you have bites of whatever, because you haven't been eating lately either (also due to the K-9's coming in) so at some point we just want you to eat SOMETHING vs NOTHING. I gather that the salt in the pizza made you pretty thirsty.
At 2am you woke up frantically asking for "agua". In the past you've woken up to "ask" for water but really you're just sleep talking because you fall right back asleep. This time you didn't want to fall back asleep and demanded it. I asked you "Should we go to the kitchen and get some agua?" You said "Yes, yes" and I said "Okay" and you held onto me as we walked around your Papa sleeping in the living room to the refrigerator. I filled your Elmo cup and you gulped down your agua. I poured some for myself and then for your Papa. I walked back to the room but not before realizing that I needed to pee and that there was no way you were going to go anywhere but my lap while I did so.
This is where the magic happens.
I sat on the toilet and began peeing. Then. You gave me a really big hug as I was still sitting on the toilet and then tilted your head upwards and kissed me on the cheek.
Magic.
I don't know why that was so magical but to me it was a "Thank you" and makes everything worthwhile. It highlighted how valuable I am, because you depend on me and I meet your needs willingly, and not just to you but in general. "Thank you, Mama, for realizing I really wanted water this time and going to get me some and bringing me with you while comforting me with your words and telling me what was happening. Thank you for being patient and giving when all you want is to sleep undisturbed. Thank you for cuddling me even as you pee even though all you want is to pee undisturbed. Thank you."
You're welcome, my sweet daughter. Your kiss is everything and I owe you everything in return.
